on the other side of a year

One year ago this week, I lost my baby.One year ago this week, my husband and I left our camp jobs and moved back to MN (and in with my mom).One year ago this week, I won a ticket to BlogHer10 in NYC. I needed joy & direction.——-This week, I am 19...

an intersection.

Last weekend we had a garage sale. I went inside to the bathroom, and after using the toilet saw blood in it. And not just a spot or two. Enough to make my face drain of color and my hands start shaking. I woke up and the mattress beneath me was soaked. We had dragged...

a secret, unfurled.

For weeks now, I have been guarding a secret. A secret that I can hardly believe is mine. I am in love and terrified and breathless and joyfilled, all at the same time. My heart continues to be broken for all of us who want to be moms so bad we ache, and I hardly know...

a milestone, passed.

My husband was coaching at a big tournament all weekend, so Nysse the dog and I spent most of the weekend together. Together, we: – laid on the bed and watched the snow and birds out the window, – played fetch with her favorite, green bone, – baked...

My Mess

I have struggled with writing in the way that my heart is calling me to write – transparently, freely, truly sharing my mess. But lately I feel like there is just too much mess to share. Jealousy has a hold on me. I feel straight up envy of those who are...

an ornament for 2010.

I wanted to share one very special ornament that we have purchased and will hang on our tree this year, and all our years to come. The picture is a little wonky, but you can kind of see it. A shell, with a pearl in it, inscribed with, “Every life leaves...

Our Darkest Day

I never thought this would be my next post. We lost our baby this week. I miscarried. I bled so much as we drove to the ER that we stopped at another ER. At the intended (second) ER I had two pelvic exams (the first of which involved forceps and was horrendous), a...

and we’re back… plus 1

It’s been SO long since I’ve posted! And we were having so much fun connecting on here… But that’s just the reason I didn’t post. See, I’m pregnant. let’s jump and squeal in excitement, shall we?! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂...

slow is relative…

Hi friends! Ok, first of all… WOW. I am loving on all your comments. THANK YOU for your support, sharing your stories, and speaking truth. I am touched and loving this blogworld we live in 🙂 Please don’t stop sharing and commenting – I will visit...

A new journey begins.

Infertility. It even LOOKS scary, that word just sitting alone up there. Yesterday, my husband and I went to a new doctor. We waited all fidgety in the waiting room, then were shown into a small exam room with a picture of 3 kids surrounding their moms’ very...

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