I’ve realized that though balancing work and a house and a super ridiculously active baby who doesn’t sleep is the hardest and most exhausting thing I’ve ever tried to do, I am also the happiest I’ve ever been. I feel all glowy and lovely and fulfilled and joyful.
Even when we’ve been up 5 times through the night. Even when I’m behind on all the deadlines.
Even when the fridge is empty and the cupboards are Mother Hubbard-y and going to the store seems daunting so we have rice and eggs because it’s what we have.
Even when my last shower was three days ago and I can’t even use the toilet without being climbed on and I wonder if I brushed my teeth today.
Even when Jared and I stay up way too late getting things done – not even talking, just typing because we have to do what we have to do.
Even when I want to leave every committee and committment and extra thing I have, just to stay home and be with my boys. Even when I want to join every committee and make committments and do extra things just so I don’t have to be in the house.
Even when my soul is so weary that I can’t believe I’ll wake up and do it again tomorrow… I do. And I am so. so. happy.
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I’m so glad you found someone to help for a little bit during the week! And, I hope you realize that it’s a completely OK thing for you to do. And, it’s even OK if you don’t think about Sam the entire time 😉 You gotta have time for you, Mama. To remind yourself that who you are still extends beyond being a mom. Love you friend!
Dear Girl … Can I just say how refreshing it is to catch a glimpse of your day? It somehow makes me feel like I’m not quite alone in this journey even though I’ve never met you in person and we live states away. I’ve been feeling pretty down lately. Feeling like I am not doing enough or being enough. That my little boy deserves a Mama that doesn’t get overwhelmed and who keeps the house in some semblance of order. Thank you for the reminder that in all this comes joy. Even when we’re tired and cranky and overwhelmed. There is still joy. = )
Been there and it really does get easier 🙂 How wonderful that you can have some help during the week – it will feel wonderful! You’ll get so much done, and when you are ready to go back to mommy mode it feels SO good 🙂
I love this, and you and your sweet boy! I get so much of this – the exhaustion and stress and joy. It’s so important to stop and recognize the joy. You are lovely! 🙂
I get this Anna…been there, am there!
Jen
the better Anna you are, the better momma you are. take care of YOU! 🙂 <3