Loss and grief are familiar emotions to me. As you know, Jared and I have traveled the path of infertility, and through it God is bringing us closer to Him. That’s right, I said ‘is bringing’, not ‘brought’. The pain of infertility doesn’t stop with a baby.
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| after all, this picture makes my own uterus twitch. |
That sounds strange, as though having the answer to our prayers in our arms isn’t enough, but the truth is that it isn’t enough. It’s still hard to hear about other new pregnancies, because I think about what it would be like to have our two babies running around. It’s hard for me to hear about moms expecting again, or people who weren’t trying but are suddenly pregnant… While my child is the greatest gift I’ve ever been given, I still totally have uterus envy. And I know that sounds so selfish, and it makes me feel a little dumb, but it’s my simple honesty.
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But I’m not sure that the answer to our prayers are supposed to be enough. I think what we’ve been reminded of through this study is that nothing is enough. Not us as moms, not our homes or jobs or husbands or babies… those things are good, so very deeply good, but only God is enough. Only He who gave all is enough. And because of His enough-ness, He equips us for motherhood.
Even when we’re weary.
He is so sweet and you will have another in God’s timing. I pray for you.
Thank you, friend. I’m grateful for you!
Anna I have been so blessed to be here with you this week. Praying you are blessed beyond blessed.
Thanks for shining hope!
So happy to have been a part of this great study, Stacey! Thank you for all of your support and kindness.
This was my favorite reflection. I don’t think that answers to our prayers are enough. I think if it were, we’d get what we wanted all the time. I don’t understand pain. No one does, and no one ever will. Only God is enough. I love it. I think he equips us for everything he calls us to. Who knows where or when, but he does.
We talk to our boys about this all the time (the boys we serve in the foster care system, not our own). They have been through the worst abuse, neglect and suffering that people can know. There is no excuse for their parents, no answers we can give them except what we share in John 16:33 and Jeremiah 29:11 – In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart, for I have overcome the world. For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.
I think as moms, as wives, as daughters of God, that is the greatest “lesson” we will ever communicate to our children as we actively live it in front of their eyes. 🙂 Thank you Anna!!
Wow – what a way to really feel the truth of that verse. Grateful for all you do to spread His hope to these boys.
love you friend =)
Anna, thank you for sharing your heart with us this week, and for allowing us to gather and speak into things that impact our mom hearts. You are a blessing!
I am so happy you were a part of this week, Jessica!! Thank you for sharing yours back! =)
I feel stupid even leaving this dumb comment on such a meaningful post, but….
I want that blanket. 🙂
HAHA!!! This is why I adore you. My godsister made it for Sam – it’s my favorite too!