Thank you all for the kind words of encouragement and praise that you left on my last post. You blessed me. The concept of Sam being miniscule and strong, and my grandpa going into fullness of life at the same time has floored me since I realized its occurrence. God, You are sweet and clever and good.
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I’m admitting my pain. Tomorrow – today now – I have my 4th visit to the doctor to try to figure out my postpartum pain. It’s been almost 15 weeks and I still can’t walk around Target for more than half an hour without wanting to curl up in a ball in my bed. The last visit, the 3rd visit, they did diagnose the issue – granulation tissue. Basically the cells overcompensate and grow weird. They did part one of a silver nitrate cauterization treatment. Tomorrow they’ll see if the tissue responded to the treatment, and if it didn’t, I have to have a little operation and they’ll cut it out. It’s feels like a big deal. I’ve been quiet about it around here because honestly, until last week I thought I just had to toughen up. Because who has pain this long after a smooth, natural, wonderful labor? Um, me. I’m miserable and feel fat – no working out when you can’t even walk – and can’t bounce my son on the bouncy ball that he loves and I hurt. So scared as I am of the procedure, I don’t even care. I just want to be better.
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This weekend was unprecented in weather (as most of March has been around here). We laid a blanket out in our front yard and lounged around, playing with our sweet boy.
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| don’t you just wanna take a nibble on those toes?! |
How was your weekend?
-anna
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Oh my gosh – yeah at 15 weeks you should be feeling almost back to normal. You are NOT being a wimp. 🙁 I hope they figure it out soon. Praying for you sweety! XO
Thanks Meg! I appreciate your prayers. Here’s hoping for normal sooooon!
I’m a little hungry. Can I nibble on this piggies? Praying you get answers!
Have at ’em – I take little bites every day! =) Ooh sweet baby toesies… Thank you for praying.
I agree you need to see the doctor and get repaired. How HORRIBLE, I remember some of that kind of pain but in time it healed. You have dealt with it so long, I am so sorry. Your baby is sweet and I am sure your hubby is patient with you, please do what you need to do to heal.
It has been too long :o(
It has been horrible, you are right, and too long. My husband has been INCREDIBLE and patient and kind with me, as we are still on this pregnancy journey. Thank you for your kind words of empathy – it’s been balm to share {finally} with you all the hard stuff.
Oh sweet friend, how I understand that pain. I will be praying for you, for answers, for doctors, and for healing. And by the way, those toes were made for smooches! Have a blessed day!
Thanks darling, oh how I appreciate it.
And regarding those toes… right?! =)
I’m so sorry you’re still in such pain…I’ll be praying for an answer for you, even if that means a surgery. I admire your attitude of “whatever it takes” to get back to “normal” and be able to play with your little guy, work out, etc. You are such a good momma! Sam is jut adorable and I love seeing new pictures of him!
Thank you Kate! I hope non of this scares you – my doc assures me that it’s super rare (bad news for me, good news for you!) and that it almost 100% shouldn’t happen with our next child someday.
Thanks for your words of affirmation – they are so encouraging to me! You know, I’ve only been a mom for a little while, but already it’s amazing what I would endure for my Sam. That love is huge.
I’m praying for you my friend…. I hope your doctors can figure this out and that God’s hands will guide them in healing you!! I hope you’re “back to normal” soon. The picture of the three of you is PRECIOUS!!!
Thank you sweets – I appreciate it so much.
The small one is so sweet 🙂 You can see that since her happy.
Thank you – he is happy!
Here’s hoping you feel better soon…15 weeks is WAY too long! We’ll be thinking about you. 🙂
Thank you for the happy thoughts – every one helps!